Saturday, November 11, 2006

A Wild and Wacky Summer- and now the Holidays are Coming!

I would like to get back to raw before January of 2007, but my heart just hasn't been in it. Personal problems took up a lot of my energy starting this summer: I am a single woman now, which really took an emotional toll on me. Then, as a related problem, I had to move. That involved a lot of physical labor and emotional stress that took time away from my studies and made the whole break-up thing more upsetting. Remember that I joined the Raw Food Bootcamp? Well, need I say that I wasn't attentive to the Bootcamp regulations through all of this?

As part of my move I lost internet access at home, which interfered with my ability to stick to the Bootcamp regimen of checking in, logging foods, maintaining a blog, etc. It also interfered with my studies, a problem I especially do not need. Between trying to find reliable sources of free wi-fi, studying, moving and being generally depressed, it seemed that I had really picked the wrong time for the Bootcamp. I tried to stick to the regimen, thinking that if I could at least stay raw one of my biggest problems would be under control, but it was really too difficult for me to handle.

When I finally got moved, I thought I could then put more attention on the Bootcamp, but then my computer powercord broke! More internet woes, then- and not having a computer is even worse than not having internet because my research data is all digital. AARGH! That did me in as far as the Bootcamp. The truth is, other areas in my life have had more importance in my life than staying raw these past couple of months: my studies and my personal life. If I have to choose between the bootcamp and my studies, for example, the studies have to win. And I've found that it is too hard not to stray from raw when I'm so emotionally stressed.

So I am no longer a member of the Bootcamp. Speaking for me- not for anyone else- a Bootcamp experience works best when it's not competing with outside forces. I thought the Bootcamp would force me to focus on raw over those other forces, but no- I couldn't make it work no matter how important I thought it was. Carlene was very understanding that this was not the right time in my life for Bootcamp (although I didn't bring even bring up the break-up issues!). She didn't call me a whiny loser or anthing dreaded like that. :-) There is a time and a place for everything and if Bootcamp is in my future, it'll be when I am fully able to commit to it.

So what do I do now? I am definitely not eating raw these days, but I am starting from square one to get myself back on track. First, simply watching what I eat is important. I may progress from there to recording what I eat- maybe calories or Weight Watcher's points. I've bought some frozen meals because those are the easiest foods for someone going to grad school and working at two different job sites! After I'm in the habit of watching what I eat I can transition to an all-vegetarian diet, and then transition back to raw- maybe by my January 1st raw anniversary! Once the semester is over at the university I will also have some free time- a good time to start a gym regimen. So I know what options are out there. It's a matter of putting them into play. That's always the hard part.


Sandy Bonchin said...

I found your blog yesterday & spent my lunch break (and then some!) reading your adventures from last January to now. Wow! I'm very inspired by how you lept into raw & lost all that weight! I'm about a month into trying to eat vegan after being a total omnivore for 39 years. Also trying to do as much raw as possible. (lost 8.4 pounds in 4 weeks! About 50 to go.) Anyway - I just wanted to say 'hang in there' - you've been through a lot the last couple of months but I'm sure you're going to get back where you want to be soon!

Anonymous said...

Please don't give up Allison. You have worked so hard.

You've done so much research. I am sure you have helped and encouraged countless people with your blog.

Taking a break is ok and January is a new year. You will do well and you will make it to your goal.

Put for the effort to keep negative thoughts out of your mind. After my divorce I used to play Psalms and Proverbs on tape at night to keep those unprofitable thoughts out of my mind.

Keep posting you can to it.

...A supporter

Lucrezia of Harloch said...

I, too, found your blog today, and spent the evening reading your experiences with raw, and "detoxing the brain" ~ that's a good one good one! I feel that the raw food as helped me with that too.

I hope that you resume your odyssey as things get settled for you. I found it very inspiring!, and your real~ness was refreshing.

I started my raw food journey in October, and have lost about 10 lb so far, and have my energy back :)

Who am I? said...

Hi, Allison!
I discovered your blog tonight on a google search, & have read it for a long while, & have been really inspired, & blessed by it...but where are you now??? The holidaze are over, are you back to raw? How's your health?
Looking forward to you posting again, & seeing your continued progress!
I've just gotten back to raw now, & have begin a blog, have far to go, but know I'll get there! I'm a RawFoodBootCamp dropout, too, LOL! I hope you're back on the horse, if not now, soon!

MariahClouddance said...

Hi, I just wanted to drop you a line and let you know that what you're going through is pretty normal... it happens to a lot of people on raw food diet. Avoid beating yourself up over it... and just take a deep breath, congratulate yourself for how well you HAVE done... and, when the moment is right... CHOOSE again.

To support myself in being as raw as possible, and to support others, I have been revising a website I started almost 5 years ago when I discovered raw foods.

Take a look at

It was intended to not only educate, but inspire. There are many success stories, before and after pix, links to support groups and potlucks, and networking ideas that might help you.

I know that you will succeed!

If you don't mind, I'm going to put a link to your blog in my website... to help others who are going through what you are.

Above all, love yourself... and love life!

Jacqueline Corbett

Olaf said...

Happy belated Birthday! I'm 30 this year, so it was a big one for me.



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